It’s hard to believe that 2011 is nearly over. I get so wrapped up in my day to day life, raising kids and cattle, that I forget time is steadily marching on and before I know it a new year is fast approaching.

Last night, my son asked me what my New Year’s Resolution is for 2012. I told him I had no idea and I would have to get back to him later. After I tucked the kids into bed I had some time to reflect on 2011 and ponder what 2012 will bring to my family.

For me, this year has been about finding balance. Balance with my family and the ranch. Balance with my work in cattle industry organizations and the daily cooking and cleaning in my home. Balance with church and kids’ school activities.

I will never achieve a perfect balance in my life and that is okay. I have learned that I can’t balance the minutes or hours each day, but on average, over the course of time, there is balance. Looking back over 2011, there were times when I was out of town for meetings and missing my family and the ranch. There were also days when I felt trapped at home immersed in endless laundry, cooking and cleaning. Times when I was riding with my husband and mentally calculating how much time I would need to read the materials for my meeting that evening.

Not a balance every day, but overall in the midst of my wild and chaotic life, there is a balance. That reminds me of a poem by Mary Oliver, The Summer Day. I have this poem pinned to the wall above my desk. The final line reads:

Tell me, what is it you plan to do
with your one wild and precious life?

This line reminds me to enjoy the fleeting moments of my life. If I leave my house in disarray or miss a meeting in order to spend the day trailing cows with my family (a wild and precious event) that is not only okay, but it’s a great choice for that day. Consequently, I shouldn’t spend the day fretting about balance. I need to remember that it’s about the small choices I make every day adding up to balance over a longer period of time.

Not exactly a resolution, but I am hopeful for a gradual shift in my choices throughout 2012. Continue to focus on balance, but not at the expense of enjoying my “one wild and precious life”.

Happy New Year to you and your loved ones!

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